TIRED

weeee...
dear READERS
i know it's a bit annoying how could
i possibly stop writing here without any
announcement of doing so
but ehehehe
"GOMENESAI"
"SORRY"

my life lately was a bit stressful
thus, making it hard for me
to grasp even a single second just to
give you the latest buzz about me
but anyways...
i'll try to cover things up
and anyways...
ehehehe
i'm so sorry for not GREETING all of you
a HAPPY NEW YEAR!
it's 2009 and still things
remains to be the same..
duh.. how boring.. ^.^

to all my fellow mixed-blooded beings having a chinese blood runnning
through their effin VEINS
KUNG HIE FAT CHOI
"HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!"
weee...
unlike the previous years
GAWD
this NEW YEAR WAS damn BORING!
no celebration no TIKOY
no everything
except to an annoying FACT of
being MISERABLE
this is just too SANE

anyways...
i have tons of new FANDOMS nowadays
ahahahaha
topping the list is the ever hot hunky bad boy looking stud called JANG GEUN SEOK!
weeee...
EVIDENCE: try to watch his movies...
even your TV sets will be set on FIRE~
wee just kidding
NEXT
TAEGOON...
the NEW Rookie in TOWN
came from the COMPANY where
EUGENE was handled with
gee...
say HOT!
H-------------O-------------T
those dance grooves, priceless smiles, lovable voice
heck heck heck!
simply DELICIOUS!
ahahahaha

by the way our dear
girlicious tootsie-pop candy-like sweethearts SNSD
grabs once again the MUSIC scene through their COMEBACK!
with the SINGLE GEE...
wee... kinda addictive
it's warm and light
a good stress reliever
ahahaha
incase you don't have any "DADABELLS"


lately as well...
i find myself creating tons of WALLPAPERS
i mean editing at PHOTOSHOP
and i was like
are these my works?
ahahaha
they're quite good
QUALITY is 7 out of 10, not bad right?
weee...


i think i'll be concluding this chit chat for now
be bcak later with lots of exciting revelations!
keep posted!
don't miss it!
love you all!

yet another DESIGN

so again..
i was left to thinking
what other design should be done
our MEDIA adviser wasn't SATISFIED with the previous one
and DAMN IT!
i'm the one to BLAME 'bout the matter
i hurried to do the CHANGES..
and i'm quite glad that it turn
out RIGHT..
whew!

...

this and that

uhm
let's just say that my week was a tiring one
ehehehe
i've been doing lots of stuffs
and it's was like mind draining and all
anyways.
it's DECEMBER already!
havent think of it not until
a sudden thought popped up
from nowhere..
DECEMBER= PARTY!!!
yeahboi!
PARTY!!!
ahahahahaha
countless events are yet to be experienced!
i can't wait for my new outfits!!
ahahahaha
we're also practicing i mean the band thingy
we do like to present something special to those events
anyways...
yesterday was like...
whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?
in a just a simple snap
i was there in front of the radio announcer
and i was in the studio
what the hell did i do?
hahahahaha
me and my clubmates were interviewed 'bout
the media arts thingy
and i was like..
hey they just pulled me out from my place
then in a sudden time
i was now being interviewed?
what the!
anyways..
i have lots of fun doing it!
so no bad feeling at all
and hey...
that was like
my first time
being a MEMBER of the team
but they have gone me to work already like
i was the one who designed the OFFICIAL LOGO
of the club!
ahahahahaha
wanna take a peak?
here it is

just RANT

i need someone who can extricate me from the hell i'm on

i need someone retort my emptiness
i need someone who can furbish me
i need someone who can rebuke the upcoming damnation yet to be expreinced
am i that desperate to be happy?
or is it just a lust of my illusion?
am i going to be punished if i will try to compensate it all with all my will?
when will i find my true happiness?
can you answer these never-ending questions of mine?
or like others, you will turn your back
and never return to me again?
my search for happiness indeed has already started
but i'm already tired of searching
i don't want to wait as well
to wait in vain with nobody to expect
that's just too ridiculous
love is beyond the meaning comprehension
without much analysis, there's no way
you can understand it,
if you don't know love well
don't even think to try
you would not like to be left in
a four-cornered-room crying....
i don't believe that everybody should give it a shot...
don't despise all minute beginnings
for all huge ones came from it
if you don't want to be hurt badly like me
then keep your ass on your seat
and just live life the way you want it to be

how to steal a kiss

ehehehe

i dunno

if it works fine with you

haven't tried it

but i will and i must

here's the real score

[courtesy of BABY AND ME~ MOVIE]

you were in a group of four and more

someone insist to have a drink

then ask two from the group to

provide one

if both of you are left alone

now you can do the SWEETEST CRIME!

this technique can be used vice-versa

i mean, both sexes could...

if you're a third then it's up to you

hahahahaha

girl: oh my..."sigh"

boy: why?

girl: nothing.. i just love the scene

so warm and comfy...

isn't it a great night?

boy: yes.. i think so...

girl: uhm.. yeah.. before i forgot

i have something for you

boy: yeah?"looks right into your face"

girl:"assume you have something to get in the pocket"

go for gold while your partner is still staring at you, eager to know what it is~ assume you already got the thing

you want to give, then ...

face him right in front

and steal that sweet kiss of him

then run away

isn't it great?

ahahaha

i lab it!!

~tips is brought to you by me~

Hiatus for SOME important REASONS

oh yeah
i've been on hiatus for almost a week or two
if you guys still got no idea about it
well i have to give a buzz for you
this won't be great
but after reading it, i know you will also
feel what i am feeling right now

Nov. 11, 2008
an unexpected twist upon my peaceful life
happened
i was comfortably sleeping when a great terrifying nightmare
cause me to wake on my senses
i can barely hear and feel my heart beat
and it is on its fastest speed i've ever experience
well... since it was dawn
i decided to sleep again
but by the morning of the said date
the irregular rate of my heart beating
unstoppably continued
to my surprise i was left in vain
in some drastic thoughts one can ever thought
i was racing with my breath and i can't even grasp
a single second to stay calm
therefore without much thinking
i rushed to the ER
then by then, my CARDIOLOGIST
decided to confine me and done numerous lab test
to investigate this sudden occurrence
my MOM was almost shattered into
pieces since she's the only one
who is taking charge of me
i stayed for 3 days and two nights at the HOSPITAL
it wasn't that boring since
i chose the best room one can have
but the ambiance was not a relief at all
the doctors find out a MIND-WRECKING
reality... i got RHD
what the hell is that?
it's RHEUMATIC HEART DISEASE
and it was said that people having this kind of disease
won't live long before they reached 35 years of age
i was left in a total state of BLANKNESS
but i coped fast
i still can't believe it
but i know, my faith will bring me
to HEALING and i will live long

here's some of my selca moments at ER /HOSPITAL:




















from this moment onwards
i'll be taking medicine that will miraculously control
the beating of my heart
and i will undergo a 5 year treatment medication
to ensure my safety and HEALTH

above all this i am not afraid
GOD will always be by my side
that's a FACT!
for now i'll be soliciting prayers from you
hope you will include me in your prayers...
be healthy everyone!

Hello My LADY! hits ME!

16 episode
an hour plus time frame
terrific casting
a whole new blast of COMIC DRAMA SERIES
is YET to be experienced if you haven't watched it
the story was great and LIGHT
i enjoyed watching it
you should try it!

I Want to

how i wish to
make that PIC
into REALITY
i USED to dream to such stuffs
and I don't KNOW
if it can be REALIZED soon
but i will WORK hard for it!
NOTHING will be IMPOSSIBLE!

Thou Shall not EXPECT much

it seems like
the never-ending-roller-coaster-ride
of CRUELTY and AGONY of mine
will not come up yet to its END anytime soon
it's a TERRIFYING fact
that i should FACE!
too much EXPECTATIONS
will make ONE suffer
in accordance with that
i have now decided to make my LIFE
at ease by not MAKING things COMPLICATED
sounds easy bit it's DAMN HARD
for sure
aish
wish that i could find my NIRVANA soon
aigoo!

A moment of PAUSE

PAUSE
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there was a still sound of SILENCE
i pause for awhile like 2 minute or more
i realized that i missin someone
someone who is DEAR to me
and yeah! i'm right!
haven't seen him doin stuffs for sometime already
and i'm badly need a DOSE of him NOW
anyways..
while i'm on my WAY on
sojourning BLOGS
i accidentally bump with ate CHI's
and there my CRAVING for DONGHAE was filled
i saw a VID of HIM
probably taken from CHINA
to where he RESIDES right
now because of the SUJU M
well
i really missed HIM a LOT!
enjoy this one
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

Enrollment CHAOS

DAMN it!
i've been tiresomely WAITING
to be ENROLLED yet the stupid LOSER
procedures in making the SHITTY grades of ours
is so horrifically SLOW!
i've been waiting in vain for almost a week running two
yet... SAME outcome prevails by the END of the DAY
grrrr!
i so hate WAITING!
but still thanks for the LAMENESS!
that means more time for my DVD galore stuffs
and more SLEEPING heaven to experience!
but still i'm not in at ease!
damn SCHOOL!
damn management!
aigo!

FUN in the SUN

yeah it's me
wandering up with the sun
i've been doing this lately for NO
specific REASON
i love being OUTSIDE
it's like FREEING yourself
and CONFIRMING maybe twice or thrice
your LIBERTY!
ahhhh
it's GOOD to feel WELL
in and out!

Why Does it Hurts?

i would not dream to have such
a situation same as Oh Dal Ja's
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
that would be so MEAN!
anyways... eye got teary-eyed lately when i
asked for apology to the one whom i have offended
HE was like not listening and i was insulted
i CRIED, 'till that time only he realized that
i was sincere like HELL
and he was SORRY for me
he was like thinking that it might be
too childish, but he did not
EXPECT that it would be such a BIG deal for ME
but it really HURTS...
huhuhu

Damn IT!

my MOM is too JUDGMENTAL
and i perfectly HATE it!
she's SO annoying like HELL!
but what can I do?
she's STILL my mom.
damn it!
i'm not ANGRY just because of that
but because she's accusing ME
keeps on ranting about this and that
which are ridiculously LIES!
plus... her over-high pitched trumpet-like VOICE
worsen the SCENARIO!
gawd...
this is a LIVING hell!!!

Life SHOULD BE

one must have wonder why it has to be like this
the way things occurs
it's very hard to TELL what will happen NEXT
lately i've been DOING something GREAT
it makes me FEEL that i don't have to
THINK what should be DONE
it's a LIFE that has NO plan
yet FILLED with FUN
though we should admit that
this KIND of life brings no FUTURE
but i guess the MOST important FACT
that we should consider is that
LIVING this kind of LIFESTYLE makes us HAPPY
one should remember that LIFE is SHORT
we have to make use out of it
PLANNING the agenda of you LIVING
is A TWO-THUMBS up stuff
long as you are ENJOYING what you're doing
and you don't over work your BODY

Dal Ja's Spring, Captivating?

whew...
say what?
i'm TOTALLY speechless
22 episodes which eats an hour plus!
gee... it must be really GOOD
for me to stick with it
Oh Dal Ja shi, aja!
ehehehehe


i love this SERIES!
though the plot was SO not LIKE me
but i do LOVE it no matter what it is
LOVE is really something
that you can't easily understand
i even think and consider that there's
no SUCH person who'll be a PRO
in terms of LOVE
all of US are whores and reckless, perfectly INSANE!
if TRUE LOVE occurred
some of US might have done
the WORST things in LIFE
or maybe did some PUNISHABLE acts just
for LOVE SAKE
but what can we do ABOUT it?
in this WAY i think LOVE
teaches us the REALITY
that we are TRULY UNIQUE
in our own MINUTE ways
naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
look who's talking... now
ehehehehehe
a TEEN age FELLOW who does not even
KNOW love at ALL
and THERE'S no need for me
to RUSH...
though i know that TIME is GOLD
but i know for certain that
TRUE love COMES unexpectedly and should not be LOOKED for
ehehehehehe

I'm HURT but not that MUCH!

"LIFE is not meant for PERFECTION"
TRUE or NOT, i really don't GIVE A DAMN on it
i was NEVER BEEN PERFECT so i guess it's true
but I'M TRYING TO BE LIKE ONE so perhaps it must be FALSE as well
lalalalalala
stop this NONSENSE TOPIC!
so are you going to ask me something again?
like, "how was my day?"
hmmmmmnnnnn...
it was ridiculously PERFECT, almost, but it was RUINED
by a nerve wracking FACT that I have encountered
that WE(me and my crushie) can NEVER ever be put into a REAL STUFF
that's kind of... a PAIN in the ASS!
another FACT...
from now on... I WILL NEVER UNDERESTIMATE PEOPLE AGAIN
GOD... how can I turned to be too judgmental
when all I know is that I'm almost if not a perfectly perfect image of a SAINT
hehehehe
it does HURT... a LOT!



MOVE ON LANZ!
it's not the END of the WORLD!

A Fresh New Look

finally... finally!
so guys... how's the NEW look of my PAGE?
CRAPPY? oh well... i bet it is
anyways...
i've been loving my life since MONDAY
i just don't know the reason WHY
but i just DID
okay... so i've been missing yesterday
it was all because... i was damn tired
because lots of things occurred
INCLUDING me and my CRUSH having a sweet conversation in PERSON!!!
waaaaaaaaaaaah... i was like.. OMO!
surely ### got a nice VOICE!
and of course... my other crush got into trouble.. hahahaha
which have cause me into cracking up my tummy down...
but i do pity #### because all have been done
yet i did not bother to FEEL it
hahahahaha
anyways... i hope you guys are in GOOD health...
omo!!!
tomorrow's gonna be a BIG DAY!
if you know what i mean...

The DESIGNER's DESIGN

so okay
the class were discussing 'bout
the NURSING DAYS stuffs
i got no point of listening
so did not bother to do so
the class decided to have a uniform shirt
to be worn in accordance with the event
and the shirts color would be black
but then again i thought
that it's DONE already
now here comes the CHAOS
they wanted to have DESIGN
they have first thought of sharing the same design with the
other SECTIONS.. but some are quite greedy
and THEY want to HAVE OWN design that
will STAND OUT amongst others
and so... by my biggest SHOCK
they announced that I'll be the one
who will be doing the DESIGN
and the EXPECTATION does rise
GOOOOOSH!!!
anyways..
i am DONE in making the DESIGN
and it's QUITE CRAPPY
but way much better than the DESIGN of others
so here it is...
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

uhm... say LOTs of things HAPPENED

uhm...
i have received a new OLD DIGICAM
ehehehe
hand me down?
yup.. from my MOM
but who cares it still works!!!
ahahahaha


i loved it even if it's kinda old


at least i have one


quite a stereotype one? who cares!

well..
nothing really special
is going on my life
like... i've been enjoying it much
since i don't feel any pressure at all
so okay...
since my mind was kinda
CRAP!... i did CAMWHORING
or shall i introduce you the TERM
SELCA PIX...
self+cam= SELCA!!!
wahahaha
vvv...so here are some of it...vvv











and a pic with mah MOM

GOMAWO OMMA!!!